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Can't get right (Zephaniah 1, verse 7)
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Zephaniah 1:7 |
Hold thy peace at the presence of the Lord GOD: for
the day of the LORD [is] at hand: for the LORD hath prepared a sacrifice, he hath bid his guests. |
Marriage used to hold our attentions more than right now.
There used to dwell, live, refuge, a deeper brilliant glory in our eyes as we just merely thought of the one who was
created just for us, fashioned perfectly for our need being met and responsive even to our illicit and far fetched wantings.
They were our truest and purest satisfaction and now we stand in this pool of Pride, and Envy and Jealousy and Lust and
feel as if God made a really terrible mistake carving this one out of our ribs. I know not what shall come in new days, in
the next hours. I know not what God intends for my life.
I don't want to make it sound like perfect have been my every step and breath, but as I am so often reminded by my gift
from God, my pastor, my wife, everyone has feelings. At times though it is so easy to jump up and down on nerves, to throw
no caution to the wind in flirtacious behavior, to hold a conversation never looking in the eyes.
I recall a few years back dealing with God on the fact that I believed that a very legitimate platform existed if people
my age and under could just have a platform to let their many frustrations loose. I believed it would make communication with
parents easier because parents were slightly unaware of the doings of their mini me's.
I wanted to have God my way. And many times I was reminded by the authorities of the heavenly and demonic worlds that
impossible was it to ever get God into a vessel that moved by emotion and heartfelt things until the Spirit of the Lord called
and God handled His recruitment bizness. It was a vision from the Lord God Almighty. He placed it in me and I worked at it
the best I possibly could even with all the opposition.
I write this tonight because I sincerely believe that we are the generation looking for the next big fix, the next substantial
lick, the next eye batting touch to move us from glory to glory.
The word of God and the world of God thus far has echoed to us the sayings of chastity and strictness to be diligent
in obeying God's commands.
The commmands of God however have fallen into many varied categories since then with even more paramilitary/parachurch
movements sprouting every moment. some of us look at the law given by Moses as the final stand in our decisions. I can be
broke, busted, disgusted, but what does Moses say. Many of us take the Prophets of the Holy Bible as our final say in all
things.
I can be tired, wired and uninspired to the maximum but what does the Prophets say. Still others of us look exclusively
and intently at the words of the Gospels-Matthew, Mark, Luke and John- and that is it, no more to be said, case closed. Broke,
tired, wired, uninspired, fired, if the Prophets said it then that's what's up. Lastly to so many Paul and his adventures
are the final frontier. I am of Paul may be a common saying.
And while I know that this seems to have nothing to do with what was discussed in the beginning of this piece it relates
because God and God's great love and kindness and yes, God's anger and wrath have always been there with us no matter where
we have been.
It is easy to see so many glittering examples of what yesterday used to hold for us. Senior couples may still hold some
twinkle in their eyes, some portion of obligation and duty from all the years of toil and subsequent reward, yet through it
all God the Keeper and the Shelter have been present. Many times now in this very breath we are taking there arises the opportunity
to look elsewhere for a quick and easy solution to an ache that lives so deeply in us now right in our marriage. It is enough
to drive us crazy-men and women and children alike.
We must ask God right away what is there if there is pain and suffering in marriage and pain and suffering and stinging
in divorce and pain and suffering and stinging and lashing in separation and pain and suffering and stinging and a lashing
and battering in casual break up to makeup relations.
Where is the favor God that You promised would be there for me as a man when I married this woman?
Did I marry this woman just to get that stash of her graciousness and to acquire Your wealth of favor?
As a man it is terribly hard to understand why I have to go 1,000,000 yards beyond the sacrifices I already have counted
in this marriage. It seems so draining and so callousing to be here in this place where a word might just sting so badly that
I use an excuse to slam a door and to walk it out.
What happened to sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me? What happens when it is hard, I
mean so hard, to respect the woman who God gave us but we are not at that exact moment even seeing her like that beautiful
grace growing quilt from God's own handiwork shop?
What happens when we can't see the glitter and the gold that existed inside of this woman when we were first attracted
to her and the chase to get to the place started?
God, I can't say that I see my wife the same way anymore!
God, my anger throws these lightning bolts at her so often now and all I hear around me are coded songs and verses to
knock this woman You gave me out. Someone said that in marriage one must know when to be quiet. Someone else is saying that
in marriage you cannot extend past today into tomorrow if your ground is not stood.
In your house are these terrorizings, these Decepticons, that are intent on bending you out of shape while you
are still boiling. They live in my heart and in my flesh too, dear ones. I am here asking God these things as you are there
and the answers are not easy to swallow at all.
"Love your wife like Christ loved the church and gave Himself for it."
| Exodus 33:15 |
And he said unto him, If thy presence go not [with
me], carry us not up hence. |
I have wondered so many days and nights what the heck that means. I am not Christ Jesus. I am me. I am saying that because
I find great difficulty in telling God, Yeah I know what You are talking about all the way in that manner of speaking.
There are some things which by experiences have become very real to me about God. You have those things too. There are
just some things that people cannot tell me about God in my life and how God works. I know because I have called on God in
some places where I had been drilled that the person of God and the presence of God is just not found. I cannot explain
that. Have no idea why I was not just made a cookie cutter rendition and version of everyone else.
Why did God tell me I am fearfully and wonderfully made? He told my wife too. I speak here in this portion of her as
my wife and escape the mentioning of her as my wife because I cannot easily see her in both roles at the same time.Do I respect
my wife as my pastor? Yes, though some may say otherwise. However, in this section I speak of her as my wife alone because
I have musings and quarrels inside of me about this position that Christ has placed me in concerning my husbandry. Maybe you
do as well.
Differences of opinion sometimes flare into title bouts of emotional stresses with a southpaw stance versus behavioral
disbursements with a mean right jab to the ribs of the emotional to be watched out for. At times the main event in my marriage
is the fiery tongue set on fire by hell versus the jabbing and slicing quiet assurance that God is there. I tell my wife that
much of my life has been wrassling matches to prove my worth, to which she responds that it don't take all that once you come
to Christ.
It is tense and it is hectic up in there sometimes, my skin peels and burns sometimes. Her skin peels and burns
sometimes. Divorce and separation is likely presented to each of us many times. Patterns are watched and followed closely
in our house concerning many things but a great deal of our marriage is constantly on the spit ready to be fired up again.
How much heat can your love for that woman take, dear friends? How much heat can your love and covenant with that man
take, dear friends?
I wonder myself so many times how I shall ever make it without this woman in my life. This piece was not intended to
even go in this manner because I just exited a spit fire marriage roast just moments ago.
How can God pull beauty from ashes?
How can God turn mourning and lamenting, wailing and strong crying into joy when we may wake up and see that one again?
I know not how God's grace works. I just try as greatly as I can to be found where His grace and mercy, where God's grace
and mercy can wash me clean. Even that is debatable in marriage because it depends on identity and backgrounds. Even though
God has delivered us from yesterday we still recall how yesterday we had a great joy when we were doing such and such and
such a thing.
Yesterday we had a real struggle, thought forever would never come, felt like our worth was whipped and didn't even wanna
hear about no new life or a place where we had to forgive to be forgiven by God. I'd rather just keep on walking it out with
You Lord God than to have to try and step back into those shoes that I broke all of me and saw all of me broken in to
fill to be what I needed for this marriage, for this family, for this woman, this man, this house, this money, this dog, cat,
goat, horse, land to be settled.
Where shall we go from this place of frustration which has led to peace but terminated the covenant held by God's presence?
David said, I believe, to the Lord, "Whither shall I flee from thy presence?"
| Psalm 139:7 |
Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall
I flee from thy presence? |
We need God's presence, husbands, and God Himself knew this was so when He fashioned us these wives we have.
Yes, much unspeakable pain does exist in the place were marriage meets the altar of sacrifice. We are burning in ourselves
from the smoldering flame of our last marriage spit fire-gather round roasting.
How are we to lift up and dust off and go on about this Way O Lord God? You have to show us how because right now it ain't
even working.
Right now the prayers ain't even flowing for one another anymore. Right now the joy of being together ain't even there
any more.
We saw a spark and a twinkling in their eye when we first loved them, but now it has been 5, 8, 12, 14, 44, 96 years of
marriage and it just don't click on and get lit up like it used too.
We are getting tired and as we get more tired we get more finicky and as we get more finicky we get more peuliar and when
we get more peculiar it is evident that no communication can come forth that won't cut them down and that is men and women,
Lord God.
What does this world gain by seeing Your own bicker and argue and throw spears at each other in verbal tantrums. That's
what just happened here with me Lord God. It was a terrific saving of personal agendas.
I know I was trying to save mine. trying to get my point across and trying to be heard. I can't see how to make anything
right, Lord God. Tired of apologizing I am. So in my peculiar ways You are the only One Who can rightly deal with me because
whenever I come into her presence it seems like World War 8 is going down.
I run from the trap all day long and it slides up on me in an unexpected place, Lord God.
Keep me faithful to my wife, repentful towards You and above all able to see that You alone will make new life possible.
Even with all these words I have been given by You Lord God concerning this great pain in me I am here and now speechless
on how You will choose to move in this marriage. May You be glorified and may You always provide. And I thank You Lord. Amen.
"Not tonight, I have a headache."- The lowdown on low libido
Oh, how many times has this been said and we forewent and skipped over the most intimate part of our lives.
Intimacy rebuilds us when we are worn and weary.
Intimacy revitalizes ou spirits when they are dampened and torn apart by the cares of this world.
Intimacy produces offspring that emit into the air praises of joys unknown an coming forth.
As we utter forth the words : "Not tonight. I have a headache," what we are saying is that we really are not going
to go through the process of breaking down barriers and spilling seed and thrusting for greater penetration to see the end
result of newness.
We owe God more husbands and wives!
We owe God all of ourselves, husbands and wives!
Thank You, Lord God, for Your merciful manners in which You shield us in our blindnesses to how to experience intimacy
at its greatest heights and overflowing fluids of favors and praise and adoration for Your ways in our lives.
Where would we be without Your intimate touch, O Lord?
Where would we be without Your great and coming so near to our deepest hurting places love, O Lord?
Teach us to value the time that we spend intimately groping and grasping for Your fullness of richness and joy to be
our own.
Heal us while we are fumbling for right touch in Your presence, O Lord God.
Show us Thy way to spend ourselves to gain all of Your member which is Christ Jesus our Lord and Your precious Holy Spirit
and You with the vision that we might be made totally free in forgiveness of sins by Christ Jesus. Amen.
Lust Wants To Bust Us Here!!
Right now and right here we are facing the candy of our eyes that will give our souls the stomach ache of the century.
I believe I know a little about stomach aches and I thank God for my place here today.
I want to talk a few moments about a bad word to most all of us, a word that we don't really care to speak about and
that word is LUST.
Lust is the exact reason that many hold that we are facing this day as we are, unperfect, in want, lacking, hurting,
struggling and the whole list of other ailments we might be able to identify in our own time.
This is a quick word for the word of God is quick, powerful and sharper than any two-edged sword cutting to the dividing
asunder of all that we are. (scripture)
Friends, I write because Lust is here with us.
Lust thrives on secrecy and self pleasure.
We have come to know self pleasure in one main way which is the pleasing of oneself with no assistance from any
outside source.
Ladies and gentlemen engage in this form of self expression in many ways and this is a call that we all, including myself,
be mindful of the presence of Lust in our lives.
Some of us feel like we would just bust open if we could not be satisfied and often times this quest for satisifaction
leads us to find self expression and often we are called on the carpet about it, but not many times is the issue directly
addressed.
We will say that it is a stress reliever, we will hold that we don't want to cheat on our spouses, we might even venture
to describe some scene from the Bible where it was only most necessary to spill our seed .
I ache here as I write, but God intends our bodies to be used as sacrifices of His power and works in the earth.
Lust, among other big names in the demon bust us in the head industry, will stop at nothing to capture us in a time and
a place where it might whisper in our most intimate parts where no one goes or where only God we have allowed to go and are
still trusting him little by little to not harm us there, well, Lust eeks in and offers a stale wisdom that if we don't do
it for ourselves then we might not ever have it done.
Lust wants to destroy the relationship that we have with Jesus Christ who awaits the day of our fullest perfecting.
Oh, how he calls out your name and your name and your name and my name before God's throne when he spies Lust coming
on over to hammer us with its exotic sensation twisters.
Oh God, are You seeing this that I am seing we often cannot even cry out because the prince of this world hath blinded
us to the truth because if we might see the truth after hearing the truth then what the prince of this world has on his hands
is a catastrophe.
Imagine a city that has 20-25 individuals who find God real and active and alive and ready to present His power even
in weakness even in our most sacred place of marriage.
We are told that the marriage bed is undefiled.
Undefiled means it is held without moral or physical pollution.
Why would God tell us that?
Shouldn't we already know that between a husband and his wife or a wife and her husband there exists a union that cannot
be morally or physically polluted?
Shouldn't we expect that?
Shouldn't we ask for that?
No, not all the time do we even know to do such a thing because stronger are the virtues of sexual education that
we see in momma and in daddy and in the neighbors and now, on television and on the computer and on the video games, on the
dvds, in the movies, everywhere there seems to be some lingering push to promote a freer, more vivid and user friendly grip
of sexuality and the ability to act on it according to your faith, according to your individuality.
God sets forth all through out His chronicled expeditions with men and women just like or similiar to us that He is present,
even ever present to bring to us a place of rest.
Not even our beds are existing as a place of rest in our lives anymore because the forces, (and they are truly forces
as the images of an army with swords and mallets and poles raised high, bleeding from every body part, spitting out curses,
flinging cries to gender a victory somewhere soon,)meet and engage in terrific battle right on the place where our heart's
desire is slated to find satisfaction.
Husbands, love your wives! Wives, love your husbands!
There are a lot of hurting and broken wives and this is largely because the husbands are looking at times to other sources
for affection and for satisfaction.
This place gives such a presence of constant pressure that the subject is even difficult to talk about.
A wise man once asked me what do I do if it pops up. I told him I didn't know and then quickly I replied that I would
just ignore it.
This wise gentleman never said any other words on that day about the topic, never said what the topic was even about,
but I respect him greatly because I can now see that it was about LUST, TEMPTATION & the fact that not one of us breathing
in this place holds any immunity from being presented with both.
In another sense this also shows the dirtiness of the image of LUST in that it cannot eagerly be spoken of in conversation
with others as one would speak of a football game or of a pie eating contest or of the weather.
Why is that?
Why does sexuality remain hidden and hiding?
I say to us all that this is the reason for the Confusion which comes in and snares our generations with homosexuality
and lesbianism and transgenderism. We are all holding the responsibility for that.
Every one of us breathing, even if we told them of our own particular way to beat the heat of temptation. We are all
tempted, men and women, when we are drawn away of our own lusts.
God told Cain, who lusted after a jealousy for his brother's success rode him wildly, that if he did good would he not
be accepted, and if he did wrong would he not meet sin lying and crouching at the door to draw his strength from him, to wrassle
him and deprive him of his right to walk straightly and confidently.
We as a people, not as Black people, not as Indian people, not as American people, but as a worldwide people, have to
be reprogrammed to begin to see how we might seek God the Father and Creator first in all things, acknowledge Him in all our
ways that he might direct our paths and cast all our cares upon the Lord Jesus Christ who died for this place of rest called
the marriage bed to be just that.
Oh, we don't know the fight for the right of the marriage bed to remain undefiled. We can't see that far, and we see
the bed everyday.
These longings for satisfaction are monsters, tough nails often chewed despite the foul taste of the rust and depite
the decay that rots the teeth and gums.
Lust is a device, a handyman tool, a handywoman tool, to bring us to the place where we cannot see anything but the pursuit
of pleasure.
If we awake ready to be satisfied and we can only yield our thoughts to satisfaction by any means necessary then what
we are facing is a stronghold.
A stronghold strongly holds us in our body parts to only see the express need for the expression of the body part.
Simply speaking our bodies go wild for the release of frustration to bring a momentary numbing pleasure that is never
satisfied and only draws more frustration.
Pornography intensifies the presence of the one pushing the pursuit of which we are ripped and torn and breaking still
even right now for.
Oh that this pleasure be mine.
We get the books, the videos, the dvds, the downloads, the photos, only that we might hear the moans that have implanted
and seeded into our own souls the constant cry for pleasure to be jacking us up and robbing us all of the love that we so
desparately need.
So we exist in this place right now to hear the words of God spoken to us because who indeed can speak to us like God
Himself,
God our Father, God our Creator and our Maker who makes us all fearfully and wonderfully,
God, who has picked us up and placed us in this place after we ran out of that dry field of what we thought was love
and we cried out to God for refreshing and what we recieved was this penchant, this drive, this honing missle that focuses
our attention right on our pressing and immediate need to be released over and over again.
Ever notice how the body cannot respond that way.
The body cannot just exert, exert, exert and express, express, express, nonstop. Not even the youngest and most prized
can achieve that status because our only satisfaction is to be found in our helpmeets husbands.
I can't have your helpmeet.
I can't have one who is not my helpmeet.
Let me be satified with the breasts of my lover, Song of Solomon says.
I can't respond to an inquiry to join with you and your helpmeet just to satisfy an innate and driving need for us all
to seek the presence of the Lord who will wipe away the tears from our eyes and from our souls and the scars from our minds
and from our hearts because we are pressed in this place to engage these ideas that are wrapped in Confusion and Shame like
bacon is wrapped around portions of tender cut pork or steak.
We are here married because God did not desire us to burn and go to hell believing that we can honestly pursue the ways
of indulging our every passion with whoever and whatever anytime.
God declines that account number because it does not come from his bank.
We can't cash that check at God's bank.
However, God does not turn us away because God knows the value of a customer.
There are passions alive even right now that look like they will take us to the heighest heights of orgasm and bring
us a climax so erupting that we will never be able to forget.
How many books and instructional dvds and videos are created to inform us how to tap into our reserve power to satisfy
a million more than we would ever know what to do with?
We seek the embraces, whether physical or mental or social or emotional or behavioral or spiritual, of others because
we cannot face how insignificant we are in this whole ordeal.
God, why do You keep showing me that I cannot provide these women with what You have designed and assigned for them to
see only in You?
God, how come I find solace in these affairs that shatter every part of me?
God, I have never been in this place bfeore; I know that this is wrong, but I am intrigued, please help me.
God, I don't even believe I can talk to You right now because I am fouler than foul and I know that You don't need to
smell me in this state, and besides I got all this Shame that won't quit deodorizing me with its presence, and I just don't
believe that You want to see me right now anyway.
I'll come back to you God when I have gotten some of this load off of my back. We make presentations like this to God
because we face a breaking that we never imagined.
To say that this place is right where God designed us to be whoever we are would certainly look like the justifying of
the action or actions, yet God never justifies actions that separate us from Him.
God only justifies the blood of His Son Jesus Christ that is shed upon our lives for the forgiveness of our sins that
also exists as the sacrifice that is pleasing to God.
We are still here prospering even in the middle of this sin storm, this sin tsunami, this sin blizzard, this sin flood,
this sin avalanche, because the blood of Jesus Christ is alive and unable to stop cleansing us.
Yeah, some 2007 yea old blood from our Savior Jesus Christ is the reason we woke up again this morning after last night
shattered every bone in our bodies, after our beds were colder than ice because we had that everlasting arguement with our
husbands and our wives, after we yelled that God ain't about two cents but that 2007 year old blood of our saviour Jesus Christ
showed up not for our benefits , but for God's pleasing.
The blood that Jesus shed for us all for the forgiveness of our sins is a gift that God accepted from His beloved Son,
and we gain the benefits that are so much more prevalent than the Food Stamps we got to hopefully provide for the family.
God hooks us up and there is no doubt about that, but it is all because He truly and really with everything in Him loves
us.
When faced with Lusts amd Lust is guaranteeing you all that its Lust for life and ain't nothing stopping its forward
progress know that Grandma Francis said, Be Smart, and that God said, Repentance is what we do.
Father God, You know the walk of this life and how Lust is a very real part of it.
You know Father God how we will surely and certainly face the places that lives to break us and shatter us that w spill
out before all.
God, we are not always seen shedding tears by those around us for a symbol of strength we ache to show, but we are weeping
before Your eyes Father God. Even right now exactly what we have in our hands and upon our minds and coming from our expressing
for satisfaction is what we are weakened by.
We have fallen here and spilled all over, but God, Father, we ask Your great mercy to be our own once again and that
You might forgive us of this penchant and this wandering into the arms of those who promise us satisfaction beyond all imaginations.
God we ask hat You hold us closely to Yourself and give us the fullness that You have that is unlike any other here presenting.
We know not how to ask these things of You Lord God for this is that secret place where secrets upon secrets have been
given refuge.
Fear lives here too, God, Shame also and Pleasure is standing before us all right here and right now so close that we
can smell the breath of our coupling with it, that we think of nothing more pressing than our session with its members that
lick our eyes and fondle our intimate muscles Lord God. Give us the strength to resist the devil that he might flee God.
Give us the strength for the times when we are swallowed by the presence of this Lust and need to know that we can get
up once more and look at You. We have not spoken of these things with too many for it seems that none understand, yet all
have the same tears in this place.
God that You might bring joy and peace and relief from this secret place where imagination is the king and not You.
Order our steps that we might hold to You more tightly in the times of storm in this area.
Bring marriages back from the place of destruction God for so many ache and hurt and yield to Lust even right now beause
the marriage bed has a lion pack roaring over it claiming it as their territory.
We love those You gave to us Lord and we hurt to know more than just sex them up because it hurts them to not see their
value and to be demeaned and so we wait for You God to show us a better way.
We thank You for this place and fort his time and for this wisdom that can only come from Your heart.
We know You hear our prayers and answer before we call and we thank You again Lord God. In Jesus Christ's name we do
here pray saying Amen.
Husbands! Love Your Wives! Even As Christ Loved The Church
This is the call and the cry from so many countless men? Why would another man say that a husband should love his wife
as Christ loved the church? Matter of factly, who in their right mind knows exactly how Christ loved the church? Yes, yes,
the next portion of scripture says- "and gave Himself for it"
Okay, Christ loved the church so much that Christ gave Himself for the church. Many of us right now are saying inside
and outside of ourselves that we ain't trying to do no more for this woman who is just crazy like a fox and talking about
everything like heaven or opposite of heaven or won't keep them kids in line or can't clea up the house because she say her
back gone to hurting or maybe we just don't want to be found insufficient in our roles as HUSBANDS.
What is a husband? Sure, the very easy answer says, A husband is a person who is married to a wife. I have found and
in very many and countless ways am even now finding that a husband is so much more than just a person who takes a wife. Husbands,
we are rare species! Get that because a husband has many hats to wear even as a wife or a mother has many hats or roles to
take on.
Here I offer a list of a few ways that you as husbands might find easier traveling in your relationship with your wife.
1. A husband is the primary emotional cushion in many cases for his wife.
Your wife needs to talk about things that do not involve great amounts or even any amounts of testosterone. A wife is
on many playing fields a woman and a woman has lesser deposits of testosterone and more wells of estrogen running through
them. Our testosterone affects so much more of our lives than I believe we even realize and it will build a strurdy bridge
between our need to be manly and our wife's need to be emotionally kept.
Yes, it is a great part of our duty as husbands to relieve the tensions ofthe day from our wives lives by giving our
undivided attention to her concerns and towards her feelings. Sure, this all does sound elementary and even as the words of
one who is trained to say such things, but fellas, we miss it so many times because we want to present that strong providing
protecting dignified role to our homes, our communities and our families. Often we are unable or unwilling to realize that
in manliness lies PRIDE and PRIDE will take us down to the ground. You have been down to the ground before.
Matter of fact if we all take a moment and get real with ourselves we will see again that it was only when we were at
our weakest and most vulerable, where testosterone couldn't fix it, that God shared His favour with us and showed us our wives.
Our wives are our help meets, those suitable to bring us to the knowledge that we are still but dust and our lives open up
to God Himself at all times.
2. God positioned each husband's life to reflect the reality of Jesus Christ because Jesus Christ pleased God. God
wants us to please Him also.
Husband, you are right now even in all the pain, in all the turmoil, in all the warfare, in all the tears, in all the
anger, in all the dump truck loads of manipulation positioned by God through the presence and usage of your wife to reflect
the reality of Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ pleased God by His obedience to being what God said He was. Yes, Jesus had some trials. Trials more heavy
at one point that any of us care to notice. We can't sweat blood for our problems to be fixed and I don't really think that
too many of us would sign up for the sweat blood or die miserably club if it ever came to be again. But every day the sweat
blood or die miserably in your sins club knocks on the doors of every one of our hearts. Right now the knock is being ignored
by all of us because we want to do what we want to do. But God daily presents this wife to us that we might find hope of opening
for Him.
3. God's love is not a spoiling, rotting love of yesterday's leftovers, but a fresh love of a new dish that we have
never seen prepared.
That's what I think is the scary part to us as husbands. We can fix our stomachs to handle leftovers. We can handle the
sight of yesterday's vittles, but when we are seeing something we can't recognize we don't want to take it in to our bodies.
We have looked at God and Jesus Christ in this same way. We feel like God is just about giving us leftovers from yesterday,
second day food and second day nourishment. This section doesn't realy have much to do with your wife, but moreso recalls
the importance of your personal relationships with the God who brought you and I this far to see even these harsh and shattering
things of marriage. Bur we must realize that this is not for our destruction. God is right there with us in this all. Encouraging
us to reach for His ability to do whatever is needed everytime.
God, every hour I need You. I cannot take my life and make it produce anything. I cannot find joy in this wife You
gave meby my own efforts. I start out looking at her like she is worth a lifetime and more, but I start to see her as something
to be traded for my pleasing. I trade her for my time, I trade her for my pain, I trade her for my desires that only push
me farther from You God. Right my heart towards this wife You have blessed me with even now when the storm winds are blowing
against every effort and right now as the floods come to wash away every grain of love that we know is supposed to be between
us. Give us peace to walk on through this life together looking for You God and knowing You are ever ready to bring us to
see You more clearly. Thank You for this day, this hour, this breath. In Jesus Christ's name we pray. Amen.
He Who Finds A Wife...
Finds A Good Thing And Obtains Favour From The Lord
Proverbs 18:22
Israel-Shannon Saunders
Far Above Rubies…
“She
is worth far more than rubies.” Proverbs 31:10 (NIV)
Consider the price one would pay for a gem as beautiful and refined as a ruby is. This is the way
the poet chooses to express his pleasing gift. He says she is of far more worth than rubies. What a gift of words used to
lift the standards of a godly woman’s character. These words speak today to those women who have been found as rare
gemstones in the eyes of their husbands. Husbands, consider the gift you have in her, and wives, strive for the target of
being worth more than rubies to him.
Prayer For Priceless Rubies
Lord,
Help to form me into the priceless ruby for him and let him value me as such. Amen.
His Full Confidence….
“Her
husband has full confidence in her.” Proverbs 31:11 (NIV)
What would love look like if we truly gave ourselves to its success? In union with the gemstone of gemstones
this question is pondered often. I often wonder how I can make my gemstone’s life more vibrant, but God has completed
her in His love. My gemstone (my wife) has been perfected in God’s attributes and that leaves me with full confidence
in her value. I have to remember that she is God’s too.
Praise God For My Wife
Lord,
Thank You for preserving my wife just for me. Help me to cherish her and to find full confidence in her value. Amen.
She Brings Him Good…
“She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.” Proverbs 31:12 (NIV)
Did you tell her that you loved her this morning or what about last night? Not for what she can do
for you, for who she is. What does she mean to you? And can Babyface really say what you want to say? We need our wives to
know that we appreciate their commitment to our well being. They need to hear it, see it, feel it and they deserve it. Your
wife is the most underpaid worker in America and she is overdue for a raise in the attention and
non-sexual affection you give her.
Hope For Those After
Lord,
Help my relationship with my wife be a standard for well being for others in marriage. Amen.
Those Eager Hands…
“She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands.”
Proverbs 31:13 (NIV)
Do you ever ask yourself what you did to deserve such a gift as that wife from the Lord? Some of us
know that it was only the Lord who could give us one as she is. Let’s take today and think about how life was when we
did not have a partner who delights in working to make dreams come true. Thank the Lord for His wonders that are made known
to you in that wife of yours. Remind her of your thankfulness of her presence in your life. For being a worker with eager
hands.
Such A Blessing To Me
Lord, Grant me that I may know that my wife is truly a gift that reflects Your love for me. Amen.
As A Merchant Ship…
“She
is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar.” Proverbs 31:14 (NIV)
A merchant’s ship is a treasure all by its self. Now this poet says that a godly wife is as
majestic as a merchant’s ship. Note also that this word picture describes not only outer richness, but also inner wealths
from far away lands. This is how you should see your wife. This was written to guide you to know how to see that pearl of
great price you’ve been given. How blessed are you to be considered as such!
Sailing Partners
Lord,
You gave me this woman who is like a great ship so show me how to maintain her luster. Amen,
While There’s No Light
“She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her
servant girls” Proverbs 31:15NIV)
The thought of having a godly woman frightens a lot of fellows. It seems like
an incredible opportunity to find true peace and joy, but living day to day with her is the challenge that many decline. Who
would accept the challenges of obtaining the favor of the Lord by being united in matrimony with the woman whose worth is
far above rubies? This dynamic prize handles her business and still looks good at the end of the day. Why? Because she knows
to save her best for you. How meaningful is this heartbeat to your living?
United In Purpose
Thankful am I for this woman who handles her business and brings wealth
to this union of God’s design. Praise the Lord!!
Purchaser Of Lots…
“She
considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.” Proverbs 31:16 (NIV)
The resourceful majesty of an Almighty God is capsulized in that wife that you call your own. Her
diligence is a shadowed portion of the lengths that your God wills to endure to share everlasting communion with you. A wife
is more than a lifetime partner, she is a glimpse of heavenly places while toiling on earth. Praise God for His infinite wisdoms
to bring forth Wo-man out of man in Eden’s garden. Keep her on your mind today.
In
Small Packages
Lord,
Bless You for these gifts that you give me through my wife. She is the greatest gift of all. Give her strength today. Amen.
Working So Vigorously…
“She
sets about her work vigorously.” Proverbs 31:10 (NIV)
Who wouldn’t lay down their lies to be a part of a godly woman’s life? That’s what
one is called to do when wedding a godly woman. It is set forth that husbands are to love their wives as Christ loved the
Church AND GAVE HIMSELF FOR IT. A husband is a caretaker of the garden of the wife’s heart. He looks after her blossoming
flowers of integrity and prunes her wilted buds of shame and disgrace. Praise God for pruning.
Pruner’s Prayer
May these hands coax the flowers bud and mulch the season’s way.
Thank God for the pruning that I received this day. Amen.
A Trader of Traders…
“She
sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night.” Proverbs 31:18 (NIV)
If this statement does not describe my wife I shall no longer respond to my name. Thank God for this
woman who is full of ideas and good news. She holds strength enough for me and the rest of the world. How many times this verse has been hidden because of worldly cares matters not because this new day awaits
to cherish and encourage my wife to be all that God has made her to be. I love you, bay.
God, Keep Bay
I commend her to Your arms for care and maybe I’ll just leave
her there. Please return her well and there shall Bay trees grow. Amen.
In her hands…
“In
her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers.” Proverbs 31:19 (NIV)
A godly woman is a richness of knowledge and beauty and hope that God has formed in His own womb.
To be a godly woman is to be a vessel that yields to God’s every usage. No matter how small or how great the task she’ll
find a way to see every need met and desire fulfilled. It takes time and much patience to be formed into this special flask
that God pours into, but how blessed is the man who discovers that she is meant to be for him. Hallelujah, Praise the Lord.
Prayer For God’s Special Flasks
Lord, Keep this special flask of Thine in Holiness and Justice fine. Give her Your Peace and
Joy divine. Amen.
Far Above Rubies…
“She
opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy.” Proverbs 31:20 (NIV)
This woman is a woman of great compassion. She got this from her Lord who poured into her special
flask. I know that in my life before I got married I desired a filling in what I often thought or was told was full. I did
not feel full. I did not cease to hunger for this godly woman that God reserved just for me. Listen as the poet continues
his description of that jewel called a wife. Thank God for your jewel today or for the jewel that you desire so greatly.
A Woman Like This
Lord,
How can my thanks for this woman be enough to kindle Your love for salvation? Thanks reading the scroll of this heart. Amen.
Inclement Weather?
“When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet..”
Proverbs 31:21 (NIV)
The trials and tests that a husband and wife go through are the cement that bonds them as one. At
times the only way to truly know a person is to experience life with them. God is a keeper of good and perfect things and
therefore a couple’s marriage should be placed in His expert care as well. Consider your bond with your other half and
pray for ways to draw closer together. This godly woman is one to be desired for she doesn’t even let the winter hinder
her mission. May God bless you both.
Blessings On The Winter Worker
Lord,
Give my wife the tools she needs to complete her calling in this life. For Your sake, Amen.
Clothed In Riches…
“She
makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple.” Proverbs 31:22 (NIV)
The riches that are present in the marriage of a godly man and a godly woman are astounding. Both
bring a list of stock options that are other worldly and bank accounts that are most definitely off shore accounts. The humor
aside, the richness f these two individuals only intensifies when they are in union because individually they are complete
in Christ Jesus. But isn’t it amazing that there is still a need for that union to be. Praise God again for His great
wisdom and for His keen insight into the heart.
God’s Royal Array Prayer
I am fearfully and wonderfully made because You made me, every part
is Yours for You arrayed me.
In The City Gates…
“Her
husband is respected at the city gate.” Proverbs 31:23 (NIV)
Diverse gifts are given to us all year long and few mean more than the ones given from the heart.
But humans and God give gifts a little differently. When a human gives a gift, he or she may feel that the gift was unworthy
of giving, but God always knows what gifts to give at exactly the right times. The gift of a godly wife is a good thing and
it causes the finder, the husband, to obtain favor of the Lord. That is one gift that is priceless- the gift of a godly wife.
Prayer For God’s Favor
God, Please give me Your favor that I may find a wife and give me a
wife that I may find Your favor.
Laughing At Coming Days…
“She
is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.” Proverbs 31:25 (NIV)
What is strength? How much shall it cost us to be found strong? What is this dignity of which the
poem writer speaks and how much shall it take to acquire? Tough questions usually require
two heads to think through, so finding a godly wife will make the ordeal a little easier to bear. The godly woman is an asset
to the man because she finishes her work early in the season and the pitfalls
don’t catch her wanting. Examine your heart and ask God for wisdom to find this woman. She is wearing strength and dignity.
Have you seen her?
Song of Determination and Plea
Give
me the hope to keep waiting for the day that we meet and escape into forever as one. Amen.
To
The Reader(s):
The aim of this booklet is to introduce some encouraging words to those who are in love with a godly,
God-fearing woman. While this book tries to speak to both males and females, husbands and wives, the intent is foremost to
uplift those in marriage covenants.
While more than enough books exist on this line of thinking, I believe this to be a unique and never
dulling message that the masses can grasp.
The reading of this booklet by even one person accomplishes the mission to get the message of encouragement out that
someone may feel like moving forward in life. May blessings from God follow this work and bless the lives of its readership.
Yours
Truly,
Israel-Shannon Saunders
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Dorcas,
hoping
that life show us more happy days and Christ tarries that I may share the extra time with you.
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When Imaginations Attack
1Ch 28:9 And thou, Solomon my son, know thou the God of thy father, and serve him
with a perfect heart and with a willing mind: for the LORD searcheth all hearts, and understandeth all the imaginations
of the thoughts: if thou seek him, he will be found of thee; but if thou forsake him, he will cast thee off for ever.
Imaginations can be a blessing to our lives. We can
imagine heaven and its glories beyond description. We can see ourselves coming out of destruction. We can imagine or visualize
the end of addictions and bondages. We can form the image in our beings that our Redeemer lives and that He shall stand and
release us from these bodies of pain and suffering to reward us with life evermore. We can imagine that life will not always
be this dark. We can imagine that there are others who still care for the ways that please God.
Faith pleases God.
In fact, Hebrews writers say that, "without faith it
is imposs-ible to please God. We must come to God knowing that HE is God, and further that, God is a rewarder of those
whom diligently seek him."
Imagination is present every waking and sleeping moment
of our lives. This section speaks of words to husbands and wives. Your desire for a husband or a wife began as a though perceived
in your mind as to what life would be like with a companion to share in the good times and to comfort you in the bad times.
Your desire for a husband or wife may not have happened right then at the moment you visualized your marriage to another.
You may have had to wait for the preparations to be complete and for all things to be in order before the imagination of love
and happiness and mono-gamy and soul ties became the manifestation of marriage.
It is important to know friends that imaginations wil
beome real life. Imaginations can be discarded or they can be fuel-ed until they emerge into living representations of imagined
reality. Marriage and imaginations and bondage hold a wealth of areas to speak into. Some married have found that age brings
out the flavor in a marriage. Some things that went on in the genesis of romancing and courting no longer goes on
any longer. Whether one is physically un-able to perfrom the essential functions of marital harmony or whether one has lost
the desire of the original imagi-nation to have and to hold in sickness and in health from this day forward until death do
part.
What happens in marital life that cements the couple
to go far beyond honoring the vows to love and to cherish through all disasters and through all sunshine?
What happens in marital bliss that drains the energetic
pursuit of the happiness and security and respect for the other spouse until no words of comfort or of resolve are spoken
any longer?
I say Imagination affected both sides, both viewpoints,
both stances.
A husband's duty and a wife's duty is to primarily serve
the Creator and His Son Jesus Christ. A husband's duty and a wife's duty is to primarly seek first the kingdom of God and
God's righteousness that all things may be added unto them. A husband's duty and a wife's duty is to primarily commit to follow
the Lord Jesus Christ into the arms of that Loving Father God whom desires His children's success.
A husband's duty and a wife's duty is to primarily fight
for the protection of their soul's from anything that will disman-tle their connection with the One who lives forevermore
to bring them the victory that He has. Our victory dear ones is held in our faith towards God and towards His very own Son,
our Redeemer, Jesus Christ.
Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary - Cite This Source
Main Entry: imag·i·na·tion
Pronunciation: im-"aj-&-'nA-sh&n
Function:
noun
: an act or process of forming a conscious idea or mental image of something never before wholly perceived
in reality by the one forming the images (as through a synthesis of remembered elements of previous sensory experiences or
ideas as modified by unconscious defense mechanisms); also : the ability or gift of forming such conscious ideas
or mental images especially for the purposes of artistic or intellectual creation
| Merriam-Webster's Medical Dictionary, © 2002 Merriam-Webster,
Inc. |
Look at this definition for imaginations. It reveals that hus-band's have
a responsibility to mark those things that are harmful to their marriages.
What's harmful to marriage? Secrecy, dishonesty, disloyal-ty, disconnection
from the Savior Jesus Christ are harmful to a marriage. What you look at, what you listen to, what you touch, what you cry
out for are all indicators of the imaginations that come to trigger you to leave your path of pursuing the Lord Jesus Christ.
The above definition also reveals that wive's hold responsi-bilty to watch
and guard what they follow after themselves. Oprah and Cristina and The View might not always be the right thing to listen
to when home is under attack. Little Wayne, Shaggy and KISS might not always be the best voices to hear after an arguement.
Reach for the Word of the Living God!
Imaginations can produce war zones in both the body and also in the home
itself. What is your intention of marriage? Is it the place where your deepest desires are fulfilled? Is it the place
where your greatest fears are shared? Is marri-age where you dump all you trash and waste to go out and just fill up your
tank with even greater junk to bring home?
The very images that we look at both away from our spou-ses and while with
them either bring destruction to our hearts, souls, bodies and spirits, or bring goodness and life ad vitality to our lives
and hearts and bodies and spirits.
Stand tall against the imaginations by checking them to see their place
of origin. Where did this image come to me from? Is it from God? Does it pertain to Life in Jesus Christ, Liberty because
of Jesus Christ and the pursuit of godliness to grow in Jesus Christ?
Learn what images are sent and packaged by the advers-ary of the soul.
Alienation from the presence and power of the Lord Jesus Christ and His Father God is the design of the Adversary. To have
you and I separated totally or even partially from the presence and power of the living God is a victory to the ranks of the
Adversary of the spirit and the soul within us.
Imaginations can exist from the heavenly realm as the Cre-ator births vocally
what is good and perfect and the Adver-sary perverts the right ways of the Creator. The adversary is a perversion of the vocally
birthed perfection of the Cre-ator.
Your marriage is birthed to bring forth the good and perfect will of the
Living Creator God. Your marriage is designed to bring God all glory and all honor and all praise and all publicity. When
imaginations attack the result is separation from the Living Creator God who designs us all for His presence and power.
Heavenly Creator God and Birther of Goodness and Perfection By Vocal Means,
Speak into our souls and our spirits this day that meaning-ful and life
revitalizing word that only resides with You above. We need the earnest of Your ability to speak to these storms of our married
lives and the power that ema-nates from You, Lord God, to tell these storms that they cannot stay. Imaginations are among
us to destroy us presently Lord God. Build a rampart about us to protect us. Teach us the use of the weapons of Your holy
arsenal.
Our bodies are racked with nervousness and with unbelief be-cause we have
seen the fruition and the complexity of the imagination to destroy our marriages by separation from You O Lord God. We exalt
Your name right now. Hallelujah. We give over to You our bended wills. Perfect our hearts and our minds and our spirits and
our thoughts as we cry out to You right now for cleansing, for release, for renewal, for vision, for righteousness, for You
and You alone O Lord God. There is no substitute for You nor Your Savior Jesus Christ.
Apply the healing balm to the bruises of each of our hearts that we may
be saved, rescued from the power of temptation. Banish fear until we are strong enough to speak to its destruction. Kindle
within us all the desire to stand firm before every adversary to our marriages wielding the sword of the Spirit which is the
Word of God.
Place within us the ability to pray for the peace of Jeruslem and for the
strengthening of our mariages. we need You, Lord God. Be our Srong Tower today. Be our Shelter from the storm of Divorce, Fornication, Adultery,
every evil thing. Teac us to rpaise You like never before when trouble arises nd when Imaginations attack.
We pray for those unwed right now that they may be prick-ed within their
hearts to know the right way. We pray for those who are wed to partners who are presently abusive and without remorse. Give
the oppressed strength until the new day. Give the oppresor the faith to fall on knees before Your Mercy Seat, O Lord
God.
Thank You Lord God, our Heavenly Father for love being shed for us without
degree or manipulation. Keep us until we want no more. In Jesus Christ's precious name, Amen.
Due to the graphic nature of this line of commentary, we at Saint Luke's Evangelical Christian
Church of Chapel Hill would like to acknowledge that this issue is prevalent among many Christian leaders as well as among
the saints of God. It is because of the struggle that exists for the excellency of Christ to be birthed here as well that
this material is presented. May God always add the richest of His blessings to our lives as we walk towards His healing.
Beastiality, Incest and Properly Aligned Marital
Oneness
This topic in our continuing
segment on the Christian and his or her sexual health is one that stands a bit controversial among many. Believers and non-believers
alike have certainly shared the tragedy of shying away from approaching its lair. In ancient tales of many Eastern cultures,
the image of the slayer (usually a slayer of dragons) was told to show the benefits of bravery, courage and fidelity and offered
some “dragon” whom lived and plotted demise from some cave. The cave was also called that dragon’s lair.
For the purpose of this discussion we will also likewise use the terms of “dragon” and “lair” and
“slayer” to bring a picture to your minds that shows how God is valid in our lives even in the darkest lairs of
Lust and Greed and Pride. There is also there the belief and resolve that Christ
Jesus completed the work necessary to bring souls near and far back into right standing with the Eternal Father God.
From this we proceed to become
more grounded in God’s plan of vitality, or life refreshing, for us in the sense of how beastiality and incest and properly
aligned marital oneness bring us turmoils and pains and bruises beyond description.
Beastiality is
the usage of the human body whether male or female with a species of animal that is improperly proportioned spiritually for
man’s or woman’s sexual pleasure and satisfaction. Incest is the improper usage of a human body with a
human body that is related by bloodline to the former human body. These two impairments bring both separation from marital
spouse as well as separation from God the Father and Creator of our bodies. Improper usage of a garden tool results in the
proper work for that instrument not being completed and also results in hardship in accomplishing the destiny of the instrument
along with the work the instrument performs. Lastly, the improper usage of any instrument eventually destroys the tool due
to continual mishandling. I proceed from here both cautiously and expectingly to see God’s direction for this conversation.
Intercourse with Beasts/
Animals (Beastiality)
Exodus 22:19 (Whole Chapter)
Whosoever lieth with a beast shall surely be put to death.
Leviticus 18:23 (Whole Chapter)
Neither shalt thou lie with any beast to defile thyself therewith: neither
shall any woman stand before a beast to lie down thereto: it is confusion.
Leviticus 20:15 (Whole Chapter)
And if a man lie with a beast, he shall surely be put to death: and ye
shall slay the beast.
Leviticus 20:16 (Whole Chapter)
And if a woman approach unto any beast, and lie down thereto, thou shalt
kill the woman, and the beast: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.
Let us look at the verses here
given that speak of the action of intercourse with the beast of the field. ALramingly though it may certainly be, these are
issues that may not reign among us, but certainly need not be taken or approached lightly. The Old Testament scriptures show
a very forthright God giving instruction to a chosen people as to how to not only please Him as their God, but also on how
to keep themselves in well being and in proper health. When we are out of alignment with God our LORD, when we are out of
focus and not able to focus on God our LORD totaaly and completely, something is blocking our view of Him. It is our duty
to focus on our God the LORD at all times. No matter what is going on in our lives or on the jod site or in the house, our
number one duty is to train our lives to focus on God the Creator of all things. The scriptures presented are guidelines for
us to being in proper alignment not only with God as our Maker and our Eternal Father, but the scriptures given here are also
given that we may be in proper alignment with our marital spouses.
How can I serve two opinions?
Meaning, how can I go and service this horse or cow or camel or sheep or donkey or llama or pig or gorilla or whatever is
of the animal kingdom with my sexual appetites, to “quench my sexual curiosity”, and then try and come back to
the house to the marital bed where my spouse awaits and give her or he their due benevolence. I cannot serve two opinions
because I will eventually love one more than the other and most of the time the one that I love the most is the one that will
destroy me the fastest. I speak here of giving my sexual enterprises to anything of the animal persuasion. God did not design
me to make love to an animal and produce of that animal because it is confusion. That’s what Leviticus 18:23 states.
Leviticus 18:23 (Whole Chapter)
Neither shalt thou lie with any beast to defile thyself therewith: neither
shall any woman stand before a beast to lie down thereto: IT IS CONFUSION.
Brother, your body is made
to be joined to a wife.
Sister, your body is made to
be joined to a husband.
And here it also needs to be
stated, obviously, that improper alignment in marital oneness and intimacy by God’s design is one man joined with one
woman. Despite the pain of the living situation, despite what the in laws interject, despite how the world ridicules the union,
the design, the standard set in the beginning was Adam with Eve.
The Lesbianism and
Homosexuality Question-
Lesbianism and homosexuality
are incontinent {Encarta Dictionary: English (North America) gives two relevant definitions for incontinent. I offer the 2nd
and 3rd for this piece. 2. lacking sexual control-lacking restraint in sexual
matters, or engaging in premarital or extramarital sex, & 3. unrestrained-
unrestrained and uncontrol-led}truths that have pushed and fought through mainstream avenues to be recognized publicly,
but God’s Word remains firm in spirit and in truth. God did not design woman with woman relationships and unions as
well God did not design man with man relation-ships and unions.
Romans 1:27 (Whole Chapter)
And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned
in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence
of their error which was meet.
Thus, lesbianism, homosexuality
and every variation that dismisses the original plan for human reproduction produces misalignment within the marital union
and intimacy, as also it does in these being separated from God’s presence.
Nevertheless, understand that
God’s kingdom and His promises hinge on His ability to perform His promises to those who come to Him in faith.
Hebrews 11:6 (Whole Chapter)
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh
to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
If you are in a state of living
where you have sexuality hurts and have made the choice to live out of the closet this is not saying that hatred and wrath
is forever pinned to you. God offers us all a plan of redemption from these bodies of sinfulness that we all carry every day.
Only by confessing that Jesus is our Lord and our Saviour, that we believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins
remission and only upon the accepting within our heart that God Himself raised Christ Jesus His Son from the dead to live
forever accepting of His sacrifice for the sins of all humanity can any of us be saved. God loves us and as we march onto
our own paths in this world, staking our claim on our individual lives, God still has a heart that wants us to be healed and
to be delivered and to be renewe, however, we must utilize His parameters for doing so. We all can be made whole again or
for the first time, if we turn fully and completely away from our sins/faults of spiritual heritage manifesting by natural
actions and if we are willing to confess our sins or faults of spiritual heritage manifested by natural actions then we can
walk knowing that God in His massive faithfulness has cleansed us from all the unrighteousness of our souls and our physical
bodies reactions to uncleanness in our presence.
1 John 1:9 (Whole Chapter)
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins,
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Incest Destroys Our
Marital Covenants With Our God And Also Our Spouse
Incest is among us strongly.
The intermingling of marital relations and of family ties has been both historical and also biblical. In certain Old Testament
passages, the children of Israel were
indeed commanded by God the Father to not intermingle with the other nations in whose land they were being brought into. This
was to prevent the actions of the people groups from destroying the connection that the children of Israel had with God. God wanted a people that would be willing to always see Him
clearly and hear Him clearly when He moved and also when He spoke.
Incest was used as a instrument
to purify the bloodlines of God’s own people. God desires purity from all of us. A major reason that God also put this
practice in place with the children of Israel
is also because the transfer of spiritual deadness occurs when contact with a spiritually deadened individual is encountered.
That is why the Old Testament prophets as Samuel and Daniel and many others were entreated to not come into contact with any
dead body, whether animal or human, because the result would be their physical and spiritual uncleanness.
Leviticus 5:2 (Whole Chapter)
Or if a soul touch any unclean thing, whether it be a carcase of an unclean
beast, or a carcase of unclean cattle, or the carcase of unclean creeping things, and if it be hidden from him; he also shall
be unclean, and guilty.
Leviticus 7:21 (Whole Chapter)
Moreover the soul that shall touch any unclean thing, as the uncleanness
of man, or any unclean beast, or any abominable unclean thing, and eat of the flesh of the sacrifice of peace offerings, which
pertain unto the LORD, even that soul shall be cut off from his people.
Ezra 9:11 (Whole Chapter)
Which thou hast commanded by thy servants the prophets, saying, The land,
unto which ye go to possess it, is an unclean land with the filthiness of the people of the lands, with their abominations,
which have filled it from one end to another with their uncleanness.
Realizing that many feel as
if Old Testament instruction is outdated due to the coming of Jesus Christ, I incline that these Old Testament references
are given to establish foundation. I believe strongly that the reason and cause for many among us not being aware or very
interested in the reality of Jesus Christ presentation is due to the knowledge being discarded of Old Testament culture in
efforts to grab onto the New Testament bandwagon and ride as if the foundation is solid. An apostle friend of ours and my
wife’s former pastor {former meaning in time past rather than meaning perished and gone away and irrelevant now} exhorted
that, if the foundation is destroyed, what can the righteous do. These are the words of Psalm 11, verse 3. Foundation is very
important in the establishing of the life of any believer, and thus is of extreme importance when speaking of the life of
a believer in Jesus Christ. It is for this purpose that the Old Testament passages are given so often: for the cause of laying
a proper foundation in our lives that the building may be study that is built thereon.
Incest breaks the marital bond
with God because in the maneuvers to accommodate the satisfaction of human need by taking to oneself a person of family bloodline
God’s order is disturbed. Old Testament law reflects New Testament perfecting of that law through the ushering in of
grace. Jesus Christ usheredi n Grace and truth whereas Moses was the giver of the Law. John 1:17 gives this reference.
Incest destroys the marital
bond between the spousal partnership/covenant due to the fact that one cannot again serve two opinions. All of these instances
are preseted with the mindset that God is to be placed first tand that any interruption of that fact is abomination before
Him. God’s love covers our iniquities and our sins, if we can only request our cleansing of God’s divine hand.
God please cleanse us all from our iniquities of sexual immorality. In Christ Jesus’ name. Amen.
Flaccid Spirituality, Erect Sexuality
It seems to be that for those who find their masculinity or their femininity connected more to their
sexual experiences and less to their pursuits of God and His satisfaction have a bigger wall to climb when looking for peace
and joy and pleasure. Honestly, speaking to myself greatly and also to others, one cannot reconcile themselves with a standard
that they cannot define themselves as needing. Many occasions sexuality and our pursuit of it deems the course of our lives
rather than the pursuit of God and His ways that cannot seem satifying enough to hold positions very long. Yes, I speak of
yours and my own spirituality when I knowingly point the terms flaccid and erect towards our spirituality and towards
our sexuality. Yes, I speak of men and of women here also. Why then do we meet these terms of engagement as we do? Why have
we began to believe that self gratifying lust is more viable than Jehovah God satisfying lust? It is because we have
been conditioned-by our own thoughts and reasonings and also by other's influences upon our thoughts and reasonings, to go
for what feels a lot better now than for what feels a lot better that we won't see until an unknown later time.We are faced
with a trade off and it burns us so much that we allow our flaccid spirituality to bust open the avenues to our
sexuality and allow no fight for the erosions that surely come when waters rush onto any land mass. Plainly speaking
we let passion control us and our actions seking only the momentary pleasuring of ourselves and decline the not so glorious
solutions to follow hard after God's own prescribed way that we might be kept from all hurt, harm and danger. In sexual waters
we proceed cautiously that no one be capable of retracing our steps to find us wrapped up in our defacations, in our soiling
brine, because we don't want anyone to further tell us how badly God desires to peel away the condoms that are used to block
His love and we don't wanna hear no one tell us that they came away from this same evil crossing place where so many are just
trapped and paralyzed at. I wonder at the level of spiritual fortitude that exists still ready to declare itself free from
that oppressive master today. That oppressive master that is clever and conniving and ridicules at the same time. Oh yes,
sexuality is a grand part of my life even today. And yes it is still a beast raging an all out preplanned attack strategy
against every one of my senses and against every one of my members right now even. Don't tell me that I don't know the struggle
cause sir, madam, I am sitting in the hot, hot fires of seduction right now. Ladies and gentlemen I am sitting here in these
fires because these words are not supposed to go forth in this manner. I am supposed to be up here fornicating and never letting
Eve know nothing. I am supposed to be up here adulterizing my life away or making babies that are in wedlock but still bastards.
I speak both of spiritual and natural things here. How can I say that I love my wife and I am engaging in erect sexuality
movements? If I love her as Christ loves her, as God Himself loves her, as the scriptures say I should, and very well must
indeed love her, then I can walk forward knowing that this breath was not wasted. If I sit here this breath and coddle and
moan and groan as I write these words to you and know that the life that presses me so closely that I cannot ignore its breath,
its hotness, its erections to entice my loins to burn and yearn, is only a few clicks or a few blocks away, then I am faced
with giving in or strengthening my guard against this place that promises to decay me? I am not alone in this place. There
are others who can say that they want to be that man, that woman, that is faithful to their Lord, to their spouse, to their
own resolutions to never again engage in that erect moment that threatens and rapes and robs dignity, self respect, freedom,
peace. Some of us can't have peace cause we don't think peace want nothing to do with us. Some of us don't care who said all
we have to do is ask for what we need cause we did that already and now we stuck in this ditch, this ravine, this abyssmal
hole, that keeps telling us we won't make it out alive. We listen to these voces that tell us we shall not live and can never
really see that these same voices were the ones that promised us a good time and promised us an uplifting expereince,
and promised us the ride of our lives. Now it don't wanna let go of its quarry. We are speaking here on flaccid spirituality
and erect sexuality. And it gets realer that that even. "No man [or woman] can serve two masters; for either he [or she] will
hate the one,and love the other; or else he [or she] will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and
Mammon." These are the words of Matthew's gospel chapter 6 verse 24 and what it is saying is that either sexuality or spirituality
deserves to be erect in our lives. This here says that both of these things cannot operate in any of us at the same time because
they are bvoth struggling and fighting and shooting it out for the right o claim the throne spot of our lives. And when it
comes all the way down to it., sexuality is a device of the devil once it begins to wrestle control over our lives from the
intents of the God whom created us and whom knows our frame. That's the truth of it, raw and uncut. I can now look around
and begin to see that many, many of those who have violence and despiar and depression and addictions and lives of hardship
and who say they know God and believe God do not spend very much time trying to exchane the bank that they place their
treqasures in. We have been heaping up these treasures by all these means and then we take them and place them in the wrong
bank. Sexualtiy itself is inhrently innocent for the scriptures say even of Adam and Eve that they were naked and not ashamed.
Find that in Genesis chapter 2 verse 25 saying, "And they [Adam and Eve] were both naked, the man and his wife, and
were not ashamed." Hoever sexuality that is unchecked at these places of satisfaction is decaying. It is a smart attack though
I must even say myself because sexuality, sexual cravings, desires, wishes, neverseemed to me to be harmful to anyone else
besides myself . And then many times, it didn't even seem that way to me. It didn't sem like anyone would be having a herart
attack because I was pleasuring myself in the bed withthem. It never seemed that my partner would have a troke or a seizure
or anything lifethreatening would come upon them as a result of my going for me as we engaged one another one more time. You
see, sexuality is a fire. It can burn controlled, as they practice with firefighters to gender different methods and different
cooperations, to keep a fire from burning down all the land. It can be held in that manner, but that holding is not the result
of man's great self willed decision making skills or his great libido. No, sexuality that is held checked and contained is
the result of submitting to the rules and instructions of putting together the product. Did Mattel make you? Do you have Sony
and Panasonic components that make you? Probably not and therefore you must go tothe instructions and guide sheets and diagrams
of the manufacturer who assembled you. God the Creator assembled you, formed you, knows all your working parts, knows all
your habits and fancies, knows all your bizness. But what do we constantly do over and over again? We go to Jiffy Lube to
get an oil change when Jiffy Lube didn't make us in the first place. Yeah call it convenient, call it a maintenance spot that's
cheap and where you like the folks who doing the work, but they don't really know exactly how you are made. Only the Manufacturer,
the Creator, who created you and I and everybody else knows that. So to go to him brings in another point though. It brings
in the point of submission to God. To submit to anyone generally is a fight and a half. 14 rounds with no KO. AmI gonna blame
sexuality for that part to. Yep. Sure am. Submission may be the only mission that all of us have trouble following through
on. Or it may be just one of many in the list. But I do present to you the idea that if our sexual erections were operating
within the design concepts of the Maker who made us, HIs name is God, then our submission to his plans and designs and functionings
would be a lot simpler for Him and for us. I know this guy his name I cannot say but his story I can relate to you. We were
in camp and it was a week long camp for terminally ill kids and I was there as one of the kids and this guiy was different.
He was in my cabin and everything but he was just different. So different that not a lot of the others liked him at all. OPur
entire cabin had guys that were betweenthe ages of like 8 and 12 or so. ANd anyway this guy was just strange. Me and the other
guys would look at comic books, were interested in superhero cards, played card games, listened to cool music and di stuff
that we thought normal kids our age did. This guy didn't do none of that. This guy liked to walk in the woods when we were
playing cards or chasing girls or singing about love. This guy cradled his Bible while we cradled our pillows and closed
our knees together tightly at night. This guy prayed before he went to bed and it won't like no keep me-till-I-wake-up-prayers.
He prayed about his mama, about his daddy, about his brothers and sisters and he probably prayed for us too. The point of
this story is that this guy was so different, so uncool by all of the world's standards. He didn't fir in. he encouraged everybody.
ANd this guy was terminally ill himself. How in the world could he be praying at a time in his lifew where he didn't know
if he'd even wake up the next day? I couldn't get it and I didn't get it until Jesus came into my hospital room and told me
t hat he was goig to heal me from my terminal disease. No I didn't even get it then. I didn't get it till right then a minute
ago when I wrote it for you to hear. That's when I got it. My message here is not about aking all your time to read this off
this page; it's not about screaming down your back that you need to do this so differently cause you ain't built for this
type of massacre. No, this is about me sharing with you of the things that have helped to secure me, myself and I in this
increbidle battle against my body, my hopes, my desires, my thinking, my walking and knowing that I am truly loved, my willingness
to keep on pressing to give to a God I only know a little bit about more and more of me while still trying to be who I am
and while still trying to keep my head up in crazy situations and while trying to tell those I meet that they came make it
out of this thing only by the grace and wisdoms of God himself. There are prayers on this site, there are hopes and dreams
and breakings on this site, there are visions and disabilities on this site, there are the makings of a life submitting to
God on this site and for right now, yes, we do have to talk about my flaccid spirituality and my erect sexuality because that's
where my weakness lies most visible. Maybe you can see me open and bleeding here and maybe you can't see me wounded and needing
repair. Maybe you don't feel like this should ever be talked about openly, but should stay hidden in private quarters. Maybe
you want yours to stay hidden in private quarters, living in the darkened halls of your soul. I am here still because this
is my testimony of how powerful and merciful and fortifying, and just there for me God is. I am finally seeing the real true
me and it makes me wanna cry and it makes me wanna smile and it makes me wanna hide and it even makes me wanna say forgetthis
and turn to the channels that show the women whose nipples are poking through their clothes or open another window on this
desktop and look at live nude girls all over the world and also those who say they want to meet me tonight in this town where
I live. I still hate to get a little money in my pocket or in my hands because wham, here it is, decision making time. Do
I buy toilet paper and toothpaste and flowers and cabbages and snacks or do I wager this note of legal tender on seeing some
real hardcore action in the magazines or on the Internet or at a temptations party or right outside my back door? THis is
a struggle to accomplish. I am reaching for God and taking in HIs WOrd that I may scan it to see if what He is saying and
what I am known for saying matches up and will sound good at least a little bit. I am moving to confront this selfishness
that has lied in me so long. I am pointing to loving my wife so that you can see that if your house ain't feeling right right
now then you might need to check your ways with God buddy andsee if you ain't out of line cause God's line ain't like man's
line. When you coming up flaccid in God's line then you better know that you gone get some masters t hat gone make you work
harder then you ever worked before to get less then you ever got before. Read on Gideon and on Samson and on Absalom, king
David's Son. Read of Matthew, the tax collector. Read of Paul and his Damascus Raod ordela. Read of the blind men who spent
all of their lives begging for newness and nobody would even reach out and touch them to befriend them until Jesus came through.
These men didn't even want to go anywhere near to JEsus cause they had been made so broken and so ashamed by the folks
around them all the time. Couldn't even finds the courage and the confidence to approach the man named Jesus who held the
answer to their lives. Whatever your issue in life or with life, why can't you take it to Jesus and see what he wanna say
to it? It is written that pride comes before a fall. This sexuality thing ain't just about not having no body to do it with,
ain't just about you not being able to sow your seeds in all the fields, it's about you not wanting God to know that you ain't
worth His mercy and His love and all the things that He is to you. That's what this sexuality thing is all about cause I feel
it to. This message applies to me too, ladies and gentlemen. It applies to females and to males because females ain't beyond
the scope of being hot and horny. Matter of fact listen to the word- horny. What are we actually sayiong when we are saying
we are horny? Are we saying that we are no better than the beasts of the fields? They live and move and have all their being
on instinct. Is that what we ascribe ourselves to? Are we saying that we cannot fathom ever being without a piece of tail
that we may function? I know feathers are being ruffled here. I can feel it already, but who will ask these questions of you?
who gonna ask you to check your sexual member at the door and come correct? God gone say that you can't be before him telling
him he the number one for you and then having this other body on the side just for your pleasure. Can't do God like that.
Man, you can't do woman like that. Woman, you can't do man like that. It's in your face cause its in my face. Everyday. I
gotta check my sexual member at the door because I wanna be holy. I gotta check my sexual member at the door cause I wanna
be honorable to my commitments to my wife and to my family. But if it comes down to it JEsus is known for saying who is my
mother and brother and sisters besides those who love the Lord and do according to what pleases him? God of all creation and
especially of my own, entreat me, help me to walk this path towards you that I may be more visible in faith to you than anyvisibility
that comes to please them. This day I ask you to help me to understand and walk further knowing how to mortify, to kill, my
mortal passions, that exist in me and all around me. My flesh wants so badly to raise up children in this place and in all
the places where I am allowed to venture but I desire your peace and love and faithfulness more. Mark my heart this day for
your daily maintenace cleaning and scour my heart that I may be honorable to you in all things. I pray for these who recieve
and apply this message as testimony to your love so great for us and I pray also for those who are extremely or even slightly
offended and turned away because ofthese words I have written here and I aks that your love still reach from the highest heaven
to the lowest valley to hold their pain. Be with us as the desires rage towards us, be with us as we fear the coming steps
ahead, be with us, O GOd our Lord, as we move to trust you more deeply than we ever have before. In all things may You and
You alone be honored and glorified and magnified. In Jesus name. Amen.
Due to the graphic nature of this line of commentary, we at Saint Luke's Evangelical Christian
Church of Chapel Hill would like to acknowledge that this issue is prevalent among many Christian leaders as well as among
the saints of God. It is because of the struggle that exists for the excellency of Christ to be birthed here as well that
this material is presented. May God always add the richest of His blessings to our lives as we walk towards His healing.
Sexual Health and the Christian
Sexuality is the place where human emotions and passions and desires meet for the expression of love. I
hold that if we do not stand for the reality that our children are viewing sexual images that are unhealthy to them and sending
them forward into paths of vice and moral disrepair then we will face an economy, a society and a new reality that will push
us all down for the stringent and old fashioned views that we hold about sexuality. Hidden and dark family secrets are no
longer applicable in this day and time because these issues and problems that are among us have grown among us. We don't want
to alert each other to the common fact that men andwomen alike have passions raging against all that they are. No, this is
not a call to debauchery and lost virtue in sexuality measures.
Rather this is a call to pay attention and wake up to the presence that is lurking among your bedrooms and
your closets. These things have always been there. It is a shame that families cannot deem family worthy of being included
within conversations that need to happen about homosexuality, about pornography, about lesbian interactions and transvestism.
These anomalies that you wished were just going to not cathc fire and smolder and die out have long burned
within bodies because the coal was lit in the news media or in the rhytm and blues culture or in the slow grind genre. Now
more than ever let us look at the avenues that have evolved from us not stancing oiurselves againstthe immoralities of sexual
societal damages.
A husband ought to have one wife and one wife only. The Word of God speaks and declares that you are to
be different from all those around you. To be set apart is not an option that you can exercise or not exercise. God's Word
issues commands on our lives because God is the one who has purchased our lowly and sorry carcasses from the warden of death
and hell and the grave. You should thank God that he thought enough of you to not allow HImself to watch the decay and the
mindless delusions of victory through sexual debauchery continue as you burned alive in hell fire that is very real. Drink
water from your own cistern. Do not be caught by the All Seeing One Jehovah doing activities that will require you to regret
ever engaging yourself in that activity. Our minds are to be pure minds, cleansed and washed minds, daily regenerated minds
by the Word of the living God who desired so long ago that we become livers and not diers.
There is promise upon our lives and the enemy named satan andthe devil and the great dragon, the adversary
knows that if he can divert your focus onto them good looking legs or onto that man's tight backside then he can work a root
into the soil of your heart that will lead into violence and rage and adultery and endless guilt and deceit and all sorts
of things that would better be avoided by us all. Unfortunately many of us have already time and again tasted of the bittersweet
poison of the sexual universe and have come back to drink from its non satisfying waters over and over and over again.
I am not excluding myself here and adversely I am presenting myself here in view of God and man that I have
done likewise and fight endlessly to rid myself of the call to quench my tantalizing thirst with the images of some cistern
that definitely belongs not to me. I want to be real at all times and for that reason I write these words.
I also feel that I have been fortunate enough to see briefly these instruments as what they truly are. These
instruments of sexual decay are truly assigned destroyers destroying our lives so minutely, so slowly, so precisely,
that great numbers of us never see where the incision was made and where we became the ready and willing host of a parasite
that says it loves us when she don't. We become a very able casa to the germ that tells us that just a few of them present
ain't enough to make us really sick. My body cries out for a clinging to a passion that both makes it experience pleasure
and makes it reach a place where it can reason itself satisfied.
Women are known widely as delicate an fragile packages with contents that are to be handled with delicate
hands and non shaky fingers. Men are portrayed and accepted as tough guys who never need a bandaid and who always have the
right to their pick of the litters that thier bloodlines may be carried on. But I am seeing so very clearly that unless the
bloodline of Jesus Christ really snatches us away from the fires of seduction and sexual debauchery, or sexual thoughts that
form into sexual actions that are overwhelming to the body, then we will exist as a body of people who are not fit for anything
but the fire that purifies us.
I come to this place to push the boundaries of the sexual envelope and to hopefully reclaim my humanity
as a rebirthed and renewed child of the living God who loves me and has great and marvelous and wonderful things to engage
me and that WILL SATISFY me. Your children are trapped in a space where they cannot receive messages of truth because the
world domination plot is to blanket their mentalities with the opinion that everything has a potential amount of truth in
it.
Hey, we got to see that Jesus Christ is the FULL Truth. Maybe the teachings of generations upon
genrations of our ancestors have deemed this place I speak from a place of shame and greed and violence and no hope for anything
besides what we can get.
Women and men are selling their bodies to exuberantly priced suitors in exchange for passports and visas
and the illusions of a better and more socio-economically founded life. Sex workers they are called. Well, if there is anything
in us that is saying that we are not that bad or that we certainly cannot be called by that name, then we need to see that
when those images of that other woman is flashed before our minds and we secretly drool over it and become numb to the happenings
of the world around us and we tell our wondering wives or significant others or partners that nothing is going on then
we are in fact the lowest and most degrading form of the sex worker industry.
Whether the trade is high class or dirt cheap labor or reconstituted slavery we are all under the umbrella
of sexual workers looking for the next fix. We are the same as any cocaine addict or any heroin addict or you name the drug
or illusion of your choice and know that it all adds up to the same thing in God's eyes.
Should you not want to worry about what God thinks and feels like because He's not here and you are,
you need to get some knowledge and some wisdom so that you can see that God is trying to help you dummy. God had to give up
his greatest achievement so that all the dummies like us could get some right to know what they really and truly are meant
for.
You ain't meant to give your body to no image that craves and is never satisfied. You are not meant to bow
your head or your tongue or your members into any orifices that cannot truly satisfy you.
God gave Jesus Christ to die on the cross for these sexual perversion's captives who have come to hate their
flesh because it causes them so much agony and guilt and hopeless drama. They say save the drama for your mama. But realistically
they are the ones who have caught all of the drama of this sexuality game. They are the ones who have had to hold down the
fort cause daddy done went and started rolling through the town lifiting up skirts and finding new ways to smile at sister
Susie to let her know his intentions were real and that has to stop. We need to be those who seek purer waters to quench our
thirsts.
The waters I speak of is only found in submitting your life totally and fully to the King of Kings and the
Lord of Lords Jesus Christ who shed every drop of his holy, precious, pure blood for everyone of us whether we are slight adulterers or
encased in the sexual game playas playing major figures. Well, we all need to majorly figure out where we desire to spend
the rest of our eternity.
Don't set up no house that you not willing to live eternally in because the return of our Lord Jesus
Christ ain't gonna be no joke. He gonna break the skies and he ain't doing no talking. He just goinging to know who is with
him and who is not. He knows already and your life, your ways, your inclinations to sin, your hopes of not getting caught
by your wife or by the folks down the street or by the postmaster are all hopes that hold no weight if you are not focused
on the reality that you have a responsibility to be one with your wife.
Not with the internet and your wife. Not with the magazines or the videos or the dvd's and your wife. Not
with the flip books and your wife.Not with the neighbor's dog or the neighbor's horse or pig or cow or goat or mule or cat
or sheep or guinea pig or parrot or porcupine or rabbit or your sister or your brother or your cousin or your auntie or your
uncle and your wife. Your marital union is the communion of you, your wife or husband and God Almighty. That's it.
So Bet can't squeeze in the bed with us. Or Comedy Central or Oxygen late night or Cinemax taxicab
confessions or Lexington Steele's latest moves or Jenna Jameson's new seduction trick can't sleep beside me and push
my wife out of bed cause then my wife will be ready to beat down the image and me. But more firmly because Christ Jesus will
look at me like you didn't even have to let that go that way. You may have lost control of the moment but you were not without
the power to stop the situation.
This conversation ties into all areas and levels of sexual misconduct: from underage or teenage pregnancy
to the AIDS/HIV/STD scare that has become rampant to the sex workers trade coming forth in the media to the prestige among
homosexuality circles to the banning of sexual education from the public and possibly private schools to the hatred engendered
in the mention of breastfeeding being natural and a right that ceases the genocide of cultures to the obsessions of males
and females alike over body image.
I am a former victim of sexual bondages and it requires the daily application of God's law into my life
and the steady application of the blood of Jesus Christ over my every action and thought that keeps me ....
You know what I am no different than any other person. I have had a tremendous issue with submitting to
the desire to be pleasured by pornographic images. I have been held captive by the images that my whole being tells me that
nothing is wrong with. I cannot tell you that it is an easy place to be involved in. It's not. I hate to think that I am committing
a terrible act, that I am committing adultery on my wife, that I'm cheating on my wife. Those things hurt to speak forth.
And I truly have to say that if we can't confess that our lives are not all together then we will never know what true
freedom exists for us as. I have learned to hate the instances where I am intensely pleasured by the slightest images
of naked flesh but I am also becoming aware that it is a fault of not seeing these instances in their natural uses that has
crippled me.
I have figured that this way it is not harmful and in fact aids me in my recovery from being sex crazed
and just hopless to anyone. I found a long time ago that the magazines would never say no or that's enough. I found a long
time ago that I didn't have to be ashamed about performance while popping in a smut video. I couldn't see anyone telling me
the wrong habits that I was feeding into my life and into my future, but I pushed forward into the deep things of pornography
and gave myself every avenue to engage it. I did not know of any greater love that she. She gave me joy and brought me peace
and promised me that a few minutes spent with her would change my world and my life forever and certainly it did. It takes
an exposing of the wrong in the act that brings someone to look at themselves.
I am still fighting more bravely against the inclusion of seduction and sexual perversion in my before Christ
speech, but maybe I'll have the courage then to not hide what I have spent a good portion of my life engaging in and maybe
then I can understand why this platform has come to me at this time.
I cannot say when or even where you will finally break free forever, but I do know that even I still await
the dawning of that day or the shadows of that night when my Lord Jesus Christ shall come for me and for all of His own to
give the comfort unknown to any except those who rest with him. They say confession is good for the soul so there it is. Any
willing to fight his advances with me in this manner or any other find me.
God, forgive me for the places that I have looked aside from your love and from your wisdom concerning
sexual healing. Break me if you have to continue breaking me or fix me if you desire me fixed and can call my breaking complete.
Either way be in my life without fail and give me the courage to face the results of these words that I have written here.
I am a sinner and I need so much your mercy and your grace. No one can heal me like you can Father God. Wash me that I may
be clean. Show me the way to truly conquer this fear of not being satisfied sexually. I pray in Jesus name, Amen.
Yours in the battle to beat sexual bondages and even more yours in Christ Jesus our forgiver of sins,
Israel
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